Ye toh tay hai ki is safar ka aant sirf dukhad ho sakta hai. kyunki safar zindgi ka ho ya zindgi mein milne wali manjil tak pahuchne ka, agar imaandari se tay na ki jaye toh manjil mil kar bhi duri ka ahsaash kara jati hai. pata nahi apni iss dohri zindgi ke shatranji chalo mein kab maat milegi aur kab shay kuchh malum nahi.
Socha tha zindgi mein jo naye mod aaynge toh safar apni sharto par tay karunga par mujhe kya pata tha safar ke halat mujhe is tarah apne saanche mein dhal lenge.
Woh mahol aur us mahol mein jine wali zindgiyan is tarah gunaho mein doob chuke honge aise kisi mod ki kalpna tak nahi ki thi par lagta hai jaise sab kuchh pahle se tay hai.
Pata nahi kyun main khud ko nahi samjh pata hoon, main achha hoon ya bura. jab tak ye tay nahi ho jata shayad tab tak main dono zindgiya jeeta rahunga. aur jab kabhi ye tay hoga tab zindgi aur bhi mushkil lagegi, kyunki tab shayad kisi ek fitrat mein jeene ki aadat kho chuke honge.
Filhaal faishla mere haath mein hote hue bhi kuchh nanhi kar pata hoon. jane kya manjoor ahi zindgi ko? aaj bhi maine apne jameer ko lalach ki lori suna kar sulaye rakha, par aisa karne ke baad bhi mujhe pura yakeen hai ki mere zameer ki ye neend aakhri nahi hogi.
Kisi din mera zameer jagega aur tab suru hogi mere zindgi meri sharton par. yakeenan woh zindgi khoobsurat hogi. kyunki khwab khoobsurat hote hain.
30/07/2002