Wednesday, September 1, 2010

21 July 2002 (from diary)

kuchh faishle itne mushkil kyun hote hain ki aadmi ki halat saanp nevle jaisi hokar rah jati hai. sabki apni-apni pareshaaniyan hoti hai per meri pareshaani humesha tab hoti hai jab main khud ko le kar koi faishla karta hoon.
aspastwaadi hokar bhi duvidha wale haalaton se ghira rahta hoon. Idher kuchh dino se iss job ko chhodne ki soch raha hoon. par tay nahi kar pa raha hoon ki jayda khoosh kab rahoonga, job chhodkar ya ...

khud ko ye nahi samjha pa raha hoon ki job bewajh chodna chahta hoon ya kishi wajah se. sikke ki tarah iss job ke bhi do pahloo hain. dher saari khubiyon ke beech kuchh khamiyan bhi hain. abhi tak khoobiyon se aksar mulakaat hui hai. agar chhod deta hoon to khaamiyan bhi ungliyon pe gin jayegi. par jaane kyun lagta hai ki job chhod kar main pair pe kulhaadi nahi kulhaadi pe pair marunga.

filhaal waqt ko tay karne de raha hoon....

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